Publishing date: 2010
Lochan and Maya are the oldest among their silblings, and since their mother doesn't really care about anything else than her own affairs, it's entirely up to them to take care for the little ones. They have to make sure they wake up every morning and go to school, they have to help them with their homeworks and cook dinner for them. They must take adult roles in their lives and show them the best parts of themselves. And all along they musn't forget that they are just their big brother and sister, for that is what the little ones need the most. They have to keep the whole situation a secret because otherwise some social worker would come and split them apart. But when Maya and Lochan fall in love with each other, their future will suddenly become very fragile...
"You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see,
but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel."
This was surely the hardest book I've read in ages, if not the very hardest one. Even though I've always been a reader who preferes happy endings, I've never been able to resist to books about forbidden love. And such can hardly turn out right. But I am hopeless romantic, so of course I always keep a tiny hope that somehow everything could magicaly work out eventually. And I was hoping for such a miracle during reading Forbidden too, for Tabitha Suzuma made me fall in love with her writing style. And surely enough I grew fond of the characters and was carried away by their fascinating story full of violent emotions and deeds. I cared for Lochan and Maya and their younger siblings and I was dreadfully frightened of what might happen to them. I just couldn't help but being on their side, for their love really somehow felt right, just like the front cover of the book says, even if I knew it wasn't...
"At the end of the day it's about how much you can bear, how much you can endure.
Being together, we harm nobody; being apart, we extinguish ourselves.
It was definitely the most intense book I've ever read. It filled me with emotions and then it broke my heart. It left me shaken and devastated. I was crying awfully during the reading, and when I finished it, I couldn't even speak for some time, but then I blurted out everything at my parents because I couldn't keep all the feelings within me any longer. I couldn't let the story slip out of my mind when I was reading it, and I still can't stop thinking about it now when it's finished. I hate that book, and yet I can't but being glad I read it. It surely isn't a book for everyone. I am usually quite prudish myself, so I admit that this book was very unconventional for me, but I would recommend it, anyway. Sometimes it's important to read books without judging it. Just to experience something new and extraordinary. I need some time for absorption of the the whole thing now, but I will definitely read more books by Tabitha Suzuma in the future when the time comes, for I think she's an amazing author who can describe absolutely everything by her beautifully chosen words, and I am very curious about her other works...